2 quotes that I like

1) "Never explain yourself to anyone. Because the person who likes you doesn't need it, and the person who dislikes you won't believe it." - it applies to the relationship between me n that *** parent. I won't bother explaining or proving myself anymore. Just let nature takes its course.......Poor kid.........

2) "Time is like a river. You cannot touch the same water twice, because the flow that has passed will never pass again. Enjoy every moment of life."

3) "Don't take life too seriously; No one gets out alive."

为五斗米折腰，我放下我的尊严

在某些家长的面前，
我们好像失去尊严的丧家犬，
只有被他们骂的份，被他们责怪的份。

他们把望子成龙，望女成凤的期望与失望，
都发泄在我们这些人类灵魂的工程师的身上。
他们只会为自己的孩子找各种的借口，
好像在整件事情的过程中，
他的孩子一点错都没有，
他的孩子的错都是我们造成的。

都说了是人类灵魂的工程师，
我要修复的是他的灵魂，
我要改变的是他的态度，
成绩并不代表一切。

你为了你的孩子牺牲了这么多，
难道我就没有为你的孩子做什么吗？
更何况他也不是我的孩子，
而且你也没亲眼目睹他对我的态度。

你说他的成绩退步是我的错，
难道你自己就没错吗？
你教导他的时间还比我多，
所以到底是谁在影响着他的成绩？？
请记住，你所骂我的每一句话，
正好显露了你自己的教导方式有问题，
正好显露了你是个失败的母亲！！

其实我一点都不怕你的威胁，
你大可去向学校、教育部投诉，
不过你的投诉是站不住脚的，
也没有人会去理会你的投诉。

我想：只要我为我的面子打多一层皮，
只要我在你的面前做个好演员，
我的薪水还是照拿，
我的日子还是照过。
不过可悲的却是你自己，
你将为你的教导方式，你的行为，你伤人的话语，
付出一辈子无法弥补的代价。

阿龙－缓慢的姿态

缓慢的程度与享受的深浅或许是成正比的。

　　对于生活，西班牙人有自己的一套关于缓慢的解码方式。

　　到游泳池时，只见人们热衷于泡水多于游泳。数分钟后便坐在草坪上的树荫下，借着阳光的热情、跳入杂志或书本的另一个世界里，与相偕而来的同伴漫无目地聊一些实实在在的话题。游泳池原来不一定是为了游泳。反正重点不是做了什么，而是专心地悠哉闲哉。

　　午休的时间里，找几个朋友一起用餐、高谈阔论、不慌不忙。所有的工作都可以等待，但人和时间等不了。一顿饭的时间是为了享受其中的时间品质。吃饭不是一场赛事。要满足身体也必须丰富精神。接着，炎热的下午和肚子里的食物开始让身体昏昏欲睡，那就顺应着身体的需要而让它午睡一小段时间。

　　对一些人而言，午休时间浪费了赚钱的机会。然而，拥有时间却不懂得享受时间或许也是一种浪费。一直与时间赛跑的人活在时间以外，感受的永远是下一秒钟的世界却忘了现在。

　　五点钟后，太阳缓缓落下。午休过后，商店的大门重新打开，开启了一番生机。充过电的身体和精神更有效地面对“新”的开始。

　　原来午休并不是一场空白。

　　西班牙人不管用餐或做生意都是一番的写意态度。用餐时缓缓地享用。与朋友高谈阔论时全情投入。经营生意时也是悠悠然的姿态。商店里多了爽朗的声音，少了精打细算的急功近利。

　　放缓步伐。缓慢之中五官才有时间捕捉真真切切的感受，不必数码相机。走得太快，赶在最短的时间内收集最多的目的地，那是成功的定义。可是人生只是一个过程。忙着赶路，沿途的风景还未看清就已经迅速地错过了。像一张还未赶得及调焦或构图便仓促按下快门的照片。

"I love this article very much. Yes, this is really a tribute to slow life, slow living, slow food. But my job now doesn't allows me to do so. Most of the time, I will only have half hour of lunch break. As for wednesday, I don't even have lunch break, as my lesson stretches from 9.55 to 3pm. I don't know how much we are sacrificing in our pursuit for excellence, fame, awards, and achieving of certain goals, etc. etc. etc. and the list goes on. Everyone of us is rushing, rushing, chasing chasing, rising, rising, prospering, prospering. I wonder when we can really do some things slowly and enjoy the process. I wonders, wonders, wonders, wondering.......Do you think goals or the process is more important??????"

FOP 2007 - 2nd day

How do I describe my emotions now?
I'm listening to delirious songs now,
and I can feel my whole heart ripped open,
my whole soul being moved, being touched,
and I am not myself anymore........

I used to be an atheist,
I used to find it hard to believe in a god,
I used to want to see proof that god exists.
I used to criticize, judge, search & disbelieve.

Its really a miracle that I have come so far.
As I attend FOP for the 1st time this year,
I know deep down in my heart that god lives somewhere in me,
and that I have come so far on this road such that I won't turn back anymore.
I really thank god for all the miracles he has work in my heart,
and for leading me to this church, to where I am today.
For a man's heart paths his way, but god determines his steps.
My heart has lead me to where I am today,
and I believe god has also determine where my steps will go.
I love you god, C, and all my new found friends..........

How to find peace & joy in this chaotic & sinful world?

3rd August (1st day of FOP)

This was really a busy, fast-paced & chaotic week for me. I just rushed forward like a bullet train, & thus it causes me to live in my flesh & leave my spirit behind. I don't know why my heart is always so heavy, burdened & tired at the end of the week. All those marking, datelines, unfair treatment, surface talking, ungrateful children, disobedient children, noises just caused me to be physically, emotionally, & spiritually dried up. Something also happened yesterday that made me feel so bad and couldn't forgive myself.......(But should I blame myself for my own forgetfulness? And who should I blame for being forgetful??? The workload, the education system, the society, the school????)

I was so engrossed in marking finish my books yesterday that I forgot that I had ordered some soup from the canteen auntie in the afternoon and had promised that I would take it from her at 5pm. However it was already 6.15pm when I suddenly remembered about it. When I went to canteen to take a look, she was not there already. I thought that she should have went home after waiting for me for half hour. However, it happened that she was still sitting near the gate and waited for me till 7pm. Oh my god, I really feel so bad. Thus, I specially went to buy some fruit for her this afternoon. However, she returned me the $3 for the soup, and even gave me one apple. But I still feel so bad about it, and it affected my teaching and emotions for the whole day. I really don't know what my mind is thinking about during working days. The minute I entered the school, I just think of marking, preparing lessons, doing powerpoints, nothing else. I don't even want to stop to chit-chat with my colleagues as time is precious. My marking is so urgent such that I need the books on that day or the next day. I don't know, I just feel that there's alot of things to do.

But thank god, after going for the FOP, I have finally forgiven myself, and slow down a little so that the holy spirit could catch up with me. As my weekends are very precious(spending time with god, bf and church frens), and I don't want to spend time doing work, my working days are really becoming more & more busy & chaotic such that I am beginning to lose myself. Dear god, I really wonders where the holy spirit is when I am in school doing work, marking, teaching & handling demanding bosses, colleagues & difficult children. I really pray that you would be able to tell me how to live by the spirit??? Where is love in a school like CZ????

敏感

我觉得我最近变得越来越敏感了。
我不知道这是件好事，还是一件坏事。
我似乎能够看穿人们的目的，
我似乎能够看穿人们的心，
我似乎能够领悟人们话语背后的意思。

我觉得我不再是那个单纯、简单、快乐的我了。
也许这就是岁月与历练在人的灵魂与心上所留下的痕迹。
所以我最近写的散文诗，总是那么的愤世嫉俗、义愤填膺。

也许我应该放下所有的思绪，
让我的心与灵魂好好放个假，
不要再为扰人的世界而忧愁。

感谢话语，是否是肺腑之言？

当那些感谢的话语，
变成了一种例行公事，
变成了一种公司的政策，
变成了一种收买人心的招式，
变成了一种力挽狂澜的招数，
那么我们的心到底遗落在何处？

我开始有点厌倦，
厌倦这一切的虚伪，
厌倦这一切的表面功夫，
厌倦这一切的哗众取宠，
厌倦这一切的步步为营，
厌倦这一切的忙碌，
厌倦这一切的卓越追求。

幸好我并不在乎众人的眼光，
我也不乞求任何人的肯定与赞赏。
因为所有的肯定与赞赏都是来自神，
所有的肯定与赞赏都是由自我的内心而发。

不过，我还是有点感伤。
到底众人的心， 众人的肺，众人的腑，
是不是已经迷失在这无止境的名利之中。