孤独的失败者 (The winner takes it all)

我最近好喜欢的一首歌，道出了所有失败者的心声。其实有谁在活着的一生中，从来没有失败过呢？可是失败的滋味真的好难受、好孤独。谁的目光会聚积在失败者的身上呢？在这个现实的社会中，有谁会有时间去可怜、安慰那个失败者呢？

人生的无奈、现实，让我连叹三声。

I dont wanna talk about the things we've gone through.

Though its hurting me, now its history.

Ive played all my cards and thats what you've done too.

Nothing more to say, no more ace to play.

The winner takes it all. The loser standing small.

Beside the victory, thats her destiny

I was in your arms, thinking I belonged there

I figured it made sense, building me a fence

Building me a home, thinking I'd be strong there

But I was a fool, playing by the rules

The gods may throw a dice. Their minds as cold as ice.

And someone way down here loses someone dear

The winner takes it all. The loser has to fall.

Its simple and its plain. Why should I complain?

But tell me does she kiss like I used to kiss you?

Does it feel the same when she calls your name?

Somewhere deep inside you must know I miss you

But what can I say? Rules must be obeyed.

The judges will decide the likes of me abide

Spectators of the show always staying low

The game is on again, a lover or a friend

A big thing or a small, the winner takes it all

I dont wanna talk cause it makes me feel sad

And I understand you've come to shake my hand

I apologize if it makes you feel bad

Seeing me so tense no self-confidence

But you see the winner takes it all The winner takes it all......

快乐是免费的？

最近在一个博客上看到了这句话，真的好喜欢这句话，因这句话就是我心里所渴望达到的境界。这句话让我想起了河内那些山区的儿童，才惊觉只有对于儿童来说，快乐是免费的，不需苦苦追求就能够得到了。

我是个极为贪心、心中充满各种欲望、渴望的人，所以并不是个容易感到快乐的人，虽然实际上来说，我还是算幸福的。小时候无法得到的爱，现在已经从天父以及C的身上得到了。小时候无法满足的物欲，现在已经靠自己的薪金渐渐满足了，虽然我还想利用金钱满足更多的物欲，尤其是饮食上的欲望。我也想做个自由自在的旅者，不必被工作捆绑。这样，我才能够真正感到快乐？是这样的吗？

我现在是活在矛盾的幸福中。三年后，我们即将过着很多城市人所渴望的生活方式，不过我也同时失去了我所渴望的自由自在的旅者的生活。我多么渴望在经济上，我们能够尽快达到经济独立的境界，并在十年内还清所有的贷款。我还有好多梦想要去追求啊！

不过，最重要的是，拥有了这笔钱后，我要把快乐带给世界上所有不幸的人。虽然说快乐是免费的，不过许多人还是需要别人的帮助，才能够找到快乐的。当我有能力在不需工作的情况下，还能够把快乐带给别人时，那才是我这一生中最完美的幸福了。

Facebook vs blogging

It had been a while since I blog about anything. It seems that facebook has become another channel for me to release my emotions, vent out my frustrations & complain about all sorts of stuff. But nevertheless, blogging is still the only channel that allows me to organize my thoughts & think more deeply.

I do miss blogging, but I foresee that for the rest of this year, I will be very busy & tired, & would not have the energy & mood to write something which is of depth.

Dance, musical, stage-dramas, marriage, housing, all of these have become a passion & a part of my life right now. Next year, I will experience another kind of marriage life. 3 years later, I will need to adapt to yet another kind of lifestyle, but I feel I will definitely love it.

But no matter what, the travel lust in me will not be suppressed, & I will still go on numerous journey with the least resources available.

I miss many many places, & I will embark on another journey again, whilst still enjoying the kind of lifestyle I want in Singapore.