2008年《五月天回到地球表面演唱会》

这篇感想是我看了五月天的演唱会的四天后所写的，所以那天所爆发的热情似乎冷却了许多，慢慢沉淀在内心与回忆里面。有时候生活中的忙碌真的会把一个人的热情磨平，把一个人的心禁锢在牢房里面。不过我还不至于那么严重，因为到现在为止，我的心里还一直回响着当天五月天所唱的歌。

其实他们那天所唱的许多首歌是我未曾听过的，不过当我在那天第一次听了那些歌之后，我深深地被阿信所写的歌词感动了。五月天的功力不减当年，甚至还可说是越战越勇，虽然我后来也渐渐没买他们的专辑了。我有点怀念他们的第一张专辑的歌曲，不过阿信真的写了太多歌曲，所以肯定没法在一个演唱会中唱完所有的歌，而通常旧歌就会被新歌所取代。

那天，4月26日，是个令我怀念的日子，因我非常期待那天的到来。整个忙碌的四月快压得我喘不过气来了，可是是这一天让我每天的日子过得有所期待。不过难过的日子也终究过去了，兴奋莫名的日子也迅速地走过了，而所留下的是那些兴奋莫名的日子的甜美与永久的回忆。

这是我今年所看的第一场演唱会，而我发现我越来越舍得花钱看演唱会了。旅行，美食，音乐，艺术，文学等，都是生活中我舍得花费的地方。懂得赚钱就要懂得花钱，不要迷失在赚钱的过程中，只想着怎么越赚越多钱，使银行的数字不断上升。那是没有意义的活动啊。

这场演唱会也是我看过最劲暴的演唱会，也因而导致我把所有的热情都燃烧与耗尽了。去年独自一人去看陈绮贞的演唱会时，我也是HIGH到站在椅子上，不过那种热情与感动有点不一样。不过陈绮贞与阿信都是我好欣赏的才子佳人，所以他们合唱“私奔到月球”是多么的绝配啊。

我想有一天，地球真的会变成像他们所唱的那样，而人类必须离开地球表面，到别的星球去生活，或者和你的爱人私奔到月球。不过演唱会那一天，他们从别的星球回来了，回到地球上一个叫作新加坡的地方。那特技效果真的太棒了，好像在观赏特技表演。一个个真人从上空的钢线上滑下来，展开了回到地球后的第一场战争。就在这慌乱中，五月天出场了，连续唱了好几首快节奏的歌曲。有好些歌曲我不是很熟悉，不过那感染力真的是太强了，你不禁会想跟着节奏摇摆起来。就在这一天，我们忘记了自己的身份，忘记了所有的矜持，就这样“沉沦”在音乐之中吧。“离开地球表面”，“为爱而生”，“疯狂世界”，“爱情万岁”，“抓狂”，这么多首有意义的摇滚歌曲，唱出了许多人内心压抑的情感与愤世嫉俗的情怀。

整个演唱会都处在高潮中，没有半点冷场。阿信所写的每一首歌都是经典，能够在人生的不同阶段中，不同的境遇中，感动着不同身份与年龄的人。当沸腾的情绪开始降温后，人类脆弱与感性的一面渐渐显露了出来。我第一次听到了“九号球”，“一千个世纪”与“洋葱”这几首慢歌，不过我竟然感动得差点流泪了。“九号球”道出了人生中的起起落落与成败得失，“洋葱”道出了一个暗恋者内心深处的情感与脆弱，“一千个世纪”则利用人类几万年的历史来刻画一段刻骨铭心的感情。阿信的人文修养一定很深厚，才能够写出这么多首动人心弦的歌曲。你是最棒的，阿信！！！I LOVE YOU.........太帅了。

啊，写了快一小时了，我要继续去YOUTUBE观看与继续怀念演唱会的片段了。再见了......

What a day......

Its been a long time since I blog about more relaxing stuff. There have been too many thoughts on my mind everyday of my life. But today was a really enjoyable day where I had a great time catching up with qq, & L, watching the type of lifestyle one should enjoy when one become rich, & also releasing all my emotions & energy at mayday's concert.

In the late morning, 3 enthusiastic gals were getting ready ready to sing their hearts out at Kbox Marine Parade. But to their great surprise, Kbox is not there anymore......What a funny incident it was actually, since none of us thought of calling to ask & none of us actually thought that it will close down one fine day. We had been faithfully going to this Kbox for the past few years & never expected any changes in the near future. I was not really disappointed since parkway was just nearby & we can go shopping, have lunch & catch up with one another. The loss of not being able to sing was compensated by the so fresh & sweet sashimi we had at sakuraya supermarket. The aftertaste of the the sweetness of the salmon & swordfish still lingers on my tongue until now. How great life is........hahahaha.....

Later on in the afternoon, I went to boat asia exhibition with C since A gave us 2 free tickets. What an eye-opener experience it was for me. We brush shoulders with all kinds of rich people from all over the world. I believe that there are many more rich people in Singapore but most of them won't know how to spend their money & enjoy this kind of lifestyle. Most of the rich people in Singapore are just obsessed with earning more & more money & would find buying a yacht a real waste of money. But for C & I, this would be the kind of lifestyle we would lead if we really become a millionaire one day. No cars for us, but give us yachts please......;P I'm tired of living on land, I would like to have a taste of life on the wide, open, deep blue sea......

After going for the boat asia exhibition, I also learn that there is a tiny island called keppel island where all the yacht & boats are being parked.

I had intended to go explore vivo-city after that but I had no time. I have only explore the basements, 1st & 2nd floor of that Vivo this whole year. I must really shop beyond the 2nd floor on May 1st after the chill-out event. Page-one bookshop, wait for me......

Ahhhhh, let me reveal to you the highlight of the day.......And that is Mayday's concert at Singapore indoor stadium. What an exhilarating experience we had at the concert. I only sat down for half hour, & after that, we just stand, sing, shake, dance, & scream for the rest of the 3 hour. And I thought I just love their sentimental & rock songs, but I also love the lead singer, Ah Xin......Yeah......whew......how talented can a guy get......
We really let free, let loose, let our hair down, & release all our emotions......
Will write a chinese blog entry about their concert soon.......Wait patiently.....

过程与终点

这几个星期的青年节比赛，让我开始思考到底是学习的过程比较重要，还是学习的终点比较重要？如果一个人努力学习后，得不到金奖，第一名等荣誉，那所有的学习过程都是惘然的吗？
一个人只要能够享受学习的过程，那么最终有没有得奖或得到超好的成绩都是无所谓的吧！

不过到底有几个人能够和我拥有同样的想法呢？但我很庆幸我的舞蹈老师与另一名负责老师都和我拥有同样的想法。虽然我们最终没有得到超好的成绩，但老师和同学们都很享受学习的过程。我们也已经抓住了学生的心，培养了学生对舞蹈的热忱。原来生命中许多真正有意义与值得的东西，都不是一个奖项能够衡量的。

昨天我们大家在老师购买的高级公寓“The ICON” 那儿度过了一个美好的下午。老师，学生，家长就好像朋友一样，一边享受美食，一边沉醉在优美的环境中，一边畅谈学校里所发生的是是非非。试问有多少舞蹈老师愿意与别人分享他们公寓里的设施，愿意花这样的时间去与小朋友们建立感情呢？？

我已经听说许多学校舞蹈团的孩子们在比赛结束后，都纷纷要退出舞蹈团。这些学校在比赛中虽然获得了金奖，但“高压政策”所造成的就是这样的结果。听说我校的某个团体的导师也实行了“高压政策”，造成孩子压力重重，一点都不享受学习的过程，而比赛的结果也让人大跌眼镜，大失所望。而另一个团体就猛加练习，把所有的导师经费都花光了，而接下来的练习就由毫无技术的负责老师去撑场面了。

这样的功利主义心态对艺术的发展只会是绊脚石罢了。其实任何一种艺术应该是由心出发，然后贯穿一个人的整个生命，而并不是为了每两年得到奖项而努力去培养的扭曲艺术。

因此我已经决定不去向XX交代为什么我们没得到金奖，要如何去改进才能够得到金奖。我跟你们不同，我对我们的成绩已经很满意了，只有你们才不满意。况且艺术是很主观的事物，所以我认为所有的作品都有其优缺点与人们喜欢的部分。搞艺术是不需要向任何人交代的，除非你们是观众。

其实一场比赛就像人的一生一样。如果你们有脑袋去思考的话，那么请问你们，到底是生命的过程比较重要，还是生命的终点比较重要。若你们还不明白，我只想说：生命的终点是死亡啊！！你能够把所有的奖项与金钱带走吗？？

自己的价值，自己决定

谢谢YL在博客里分享了这句话，
我看了后真的好感动。

这个只会以金钱来诱惑人的制度，
其实只会让更多的人开始怀疑自己的能力与价值。

不过，一个人为一个机构付出多少，
真的就能够判断他身为人的价值吗？

不是的，我的价值由我自己决定，
而不是由想要左右我的你们来决定。

埋没在工作，名誉与金钱的追逐中的你们，
你们还在沉睡吗？
你们真正要做的是什么？你们还记得吗？

C1's "Thinking with Excellence" vs C2's "Pursuit for Excellence".

When I heard that Pastor was going to preach a message about "EXCELLENCE", my whole heart sank deep into the ocean. This is the extent to which I have become so phobic about the word "EXCELLENCE". I have seen so many people & organization going to the extreme about pursuing excellence, till it become a perfectionist attitude. I have seen so many people sacrificing health, time & relationship so that they can pursue excellence, pursue success. I have been thinking for so many years, are all these sacrifices worthwhile anyway?

But thank god, at the end of the message, I finally realized a big difference between C1 & C2's attitude towards pursuing excellence. Let me list down the 10 differences in attitudes.

C1 vs C2

(1) Liberty(Gal.5:13) vs Laws
(2) Service(Matt.20:25-26) vs Systems
(3) Spirit-centered(Zecha 4:6) vs Self-centered
(4) Love(2 Tim 1: 6-7) vs Legalism.
(5) Faith vs Fear
(6) Concern vs Control
(7) Devotion(exo.17:12) vs Duty
(8) Giving(2 Cor.9:6) vs Getting
(9) Example vs Explanation
(10) Breakthrough vs Bondage

Now I know why I will think with excellence & pursue excellence for C1, but definitely definitely not for C2. Goodbye, C2, you can draw up whatever big plans you like, but I won't be involved anymore. Goodbye......Our 23 years "affinity" will end soon......

About procrastination

It is amazing how procrastination really penetrates into every area of our life. Even my writing of this blog took 2 weeks to finally take place. I must really pray & reflect on the sermon that I heard 2 weeks ago again.

The sermon started with a few "waking-up" quotes "To get where you want to go in life, you must start where you are.", "Decisiveness is the quality to bring change.".

Many people procrastinate because the task is overwhelming, they are fearful of the unknown, or because of pure laziness. They feel that they are still young, there is no hurry or urgency.

These are the few areas of my life that I must take good care of & should not procrastinate anymore. They are : Health, Ability, Relationships, Vision, Emotional life, Spiritual life, & thought life. I can't agree with them more. Ironically, all these have nothing to do with work.

The 9 steps to overcome procrastination are as follows:
(1) Activate my planner.
(2) Break large tasks.
(3) Create dead-lines.
(4) Deal with mess.
(5) Encourage myself.
(6) Face my fears.
(7) Goals Review.
(8) Hang on, don't give up.
(9) Initiate Now.

Job 8:7 says "And though you started with little, you will end with much." This is the compound-interest theory too. The very little things we do everyday in our life will slowly build up into a hugh mountain in our life-time. So what are we investing our time & energy into everyday of our life? This is a question everybody should ponders about......

The story of Samson in Judges Chap. 13-15 also serves as a reflection to our everyday's life. What is the "hornets' sting"(indulgence) in our life that we can't let go of & would lead us to a tragic end one day? Is it work, I wonder?

God touch my heart that day & I really believe I can do great things through his strength & vision. But somehow I'm still procrastinating & refusing to get out of my comfort zone. Instead, I'm hardening my heart to all those ambiguous things around me for the sake of money. But I know there are more meaningful things that I can do in this short lifetime & in this world. God, please stop me from procrastinating anymore.

习惯成自残-李邪

习惯，是一个很可怕的陷阱。
有个字叫“渐渐”，它的杀人招数，无形无色无味。
等你被杀之后，还不知道凶手在哪里。

牛小姐本来富有伟大抱负，立志当一个好老师。
灵魂工程师，多浪漫。
学校说，排名很重要，你一年能让学校拿几个奖？
牛小姐说，老师应该注重学生的人格素养。
几年耗下来，牛小姐一直背道而驰，一个鬼奖也没有帮学校领回家。
她开始觉得很累。
同事说，哎呀，就是这样，习惯就好。
牛小姐渐渐习惯这个教育环境，这个制度。
十年后，牛小姐已经不觉得是习惯。
这个思维，变成了她的一条血管，自然存活。
牛小姐被杀死了。

猪先生和马小姐从高中就晒月亮。
晒啊晒，晒到快三十。
大家相处太久，挖鼻屎，流口水，一目了然。
猪先生想，再也找不到别人，可以容忍他的衰样。
马小姐想，青春小鸟快死掉，反正要她的人越来越少，千万别让猪先生逃跑。
隔壁的鸡嫂问，哎哟，你们真是老夫老妻，羡慕我到流鼻涕。
其实，猪先生和马小姐不再相爱。
他们自己也知道。
不过，在一起这么久，也没有什么选择。
他们终于结婚了。
“你愿意娶马小姐为妻，嫁猪先生为夫吗？”
“哦，习惯就好。”
猪先生和马小姐，也死了。

人，害怕改变。
习惯给我们安全感。
离不开，不能离开，放不掉，不能放掉。
我们日夜养成各种习惯，也许我们不够相信自己。
也不够信任自己的潜力。
也许不够愿意冒任何险。

改变，是习惯的克星。
呵呵，不过，不是叫你从此每天改吃冰冻肉。
我们会听话，有时也是因为习惯。
习惯被指示，习惯被领导。
住在新加坡，最常听到的就是“习惯就好”。

要不断推翻习惯，才能看见不一样的自己。
如果让“渐渐”侵入你的身体和头脑，最后脑死身亡，整个人就是一个活牢房。
呵呵，习惯成自残。

（好喜欢这篇文章，就把它转载在我的博客。我也正要写一篇有关改变，惧怕与拖延的文章。Its about change, fear & procrastination.）

Crazy 1.5hr journey on night bus NR7 & 2N

I tried the night bus 2N back from esplanade last night. It was a crazy 1.5hr journey with the bus taking the longest route I could never imagine. I seemed to be taken on a tour of Singapore's town area & tampines area. Am I a tourist or what?

There's only economical value in the eyes of the bus company & common folks like us would have to sacrifice our time just to save a mere $10? Its already night time rite. Why don't the company creates a few more routes & let the bus takes the expressway so that we could be sent home as fast as possible as we are tired.

It was the same experience the other time taking NR2, & NR7 from tiong bahru. The waiting time for both buses was crazy. It took us a total of 2.5 hrs to get home.

This would be my last time taking both buses. I would rather spend an additional $10 to take a cab home. My time is worth more than $10 per hour loh......

But I guess the best solution would be not to be a night owl. As I grow older, I would prefer to sleep early & wake up early. Staying up late is not the cup of tea for me now. I have change a lot in my lifestyle as time goes by......