Of love & friendship

Although valentine's day is such a "commercialized" event nowadays, but I still feel very happy & excited on this day. It actually makes me feel how great it is to be loved by someone & to receive beautiful flowers & soft toy on this day.

I still remember on our 1st valentine day, I received a big bouquet of sunflower because it was what I wanted. On our 2nd valentine day, I received a big bouquet of red roses with 2 cute bears that said "muck, I love you" when they kissed each other. On valentine's day this year, I requested a watch as I find flowers not very practical. But in the end, I still got a watch, & a cute little pooh bear with 3 red roses attached. The bear & flowers were sent to my school, & every year, the school clerk would be busy going around delivering the flowers to respective teachers on valentine's day. It really shows how flowers are still the best gifts to touch a woman's heart, although some would prefer diamonds & crystals.

I crack my brain to think of a restaurant which is quiet & romantic & where not many people would go. In the end, I still choose back "coffee showcase" at katong there as not many people would know of that place. It was a great choice as the place is convenient for me, the food is value-for-money(but the chicken skin was terribly salty today & cannot be eaten), the ambience is great, & most importantly, there was no crowd. It had been a long time since we had private time for ourselves. ;)

As I "indulge" myself in this romantic atmosphere, I also started to drift off & started to think about friendship on this friendship day. For me, love & friendship are actually more important than kinship as I had never been close with my family emotionally, mentally & spiritually. Friends have always played an important part in my life in my past 29 years of single-hood. After I got attached, friends are also as important as my bf as they still fulfilled my emotional & mental needs sometimes. But nowadays, I find that I do not hold on to friendship as tightly as last time because I find that friends do actually drift apart sometimes & other new friends will come into your life to fill up their places. But nevertheless, I am thankful for all the friends I meet along my life's journey & for the support & company we provided each other.

As I rise up to become a cgc, I don't know whether I'm able to build & maintain friendship with my fellow members. Somehow, I find that everything needs time & I don't know whether we will break through each other's facade & get into each other's life, heart & mind. J seems so elusive, & V seems so cold & melancholic. Although they are just a phone call away, but I just strongly feel that conversing via the phone is not my way of building friendship. I just wish that god will show me a way. This is really a challenge to me. But I'm really thankful that god has brought me to E260. Because now, I have finally found true friends who are believers. I used to wonder why all my close friends are actually non-believers. But now I know why. It will be much more easier for me to reach out to those wondering souls out there in this "sinful" world.

Once again, happy valentine's day to all those lonely souls out there. I know how you feel as I have maintained my single-hood for 29 years. Just believe that one day, you will find your valentine too as age really doesn't matter as long as you wait patiently for him/her to appear.