Its hard being a christian

Dearest god,

Its seems like ages n ages since I wrote in this blog of mine. But actually, only two months had passed since school reopens. But so many things have happened in my personal life, in my work life that it seems a very long time had passed....

Father, I don't know why I suddenly have the feeling that its hard being your child. Pardon me for saying this father, but the more we love, the more we use our heart, the more hurt we will face from those around us......So father, do tell me whether the things I'm doing is right, n whether is it according to your will, n my ability........Father, please up-lift my low n demoralised spirit, and father, I really pray that my pupils will be able to see my heart, and to be more well-behaved.....

Father, I'm also afraid of loving him too much too.....But I know I can't control my own feelings and his feelings for me........Dear father, so please show me a way, jus some way, so as to reassure my heart, n not doubt anymore........

Father, sometimes I jus can't see the whole picture, and I jus dwell in my own emotions........Father, please, teach me a way so as not to burn out my emotions, n not to let the devil lead my emotions.........我知道你已为我预备一条康庄大道，一条风景绮丽、布满色彩的道路

天父，求你救我脱离情绪上的苦难与低落。
天父，你是何等信实，有你在身旁，我不再怀疑自己的能力，也不再害怕去爱。
天父，如果他是你为我拣选的，就让我为他付出我所有的爱，因为在你爱的怀里，我不再惧怕。
我爱你天父，我也爱他。。。。。