与神面对面(An encounter with god)
Do you believe in god? Why do you believe in god? Is there a god in this world? Who is god?
I believe people who can think, who are able to think, who bothers to think, have ask this question themselves many times throughout their life.
Some people have found their answer, some people continue to search for the answer, some people have found, abandon, n continue searching for another answer.
My search for the way, the truth n the life, has always been a long, n emotional journey. I love to think, I love to read, n I don't want to stop myself from thinking and searching. But the truth is always more difficult to be found. Our heart, our emotions are the barriers separating us from the truth, separating us from god.
Life is not an easy journey. There are too many hidden hurts and sins in a persons' heart, in a person's life. A person can only help himself by being philosophical, by burying the hurts and sins, by being happy, by putting up a brave front. But nobody is really able to be truthful to himself, to face himself, to accept himself as who he is. The roots of hurts and sins are actually deeply rooted in many people's hearts and the biggest problem is nobody has really understand this truth and as time goes by, these hurts and sins modify their character, their thinking, and the way they live life.
Although there are still many things in the world that I do not understand, there are still many doings of god that I do not understand, there are times when my faith are not so strong, and I become weak, I can now open my heart to god, to face him, and to be very truthful to him. This is because I now understand that we are all precious children of god.
After going for this weekend encounter camp, I find that my heart has become very light, and the "cupboard" in my heart has been removed. ( I used to treat my heart as a cupboard, and to "compartmentalised" all my feelings so that I won't feel sad or hurt, and just feel indifferent about people and events.) All those past hurts and "world" sins that I have committed before I become a christian are now nailed to the cross, as Jesus has sacrificed for us on the cross. I just prayed that god will guard my heart in this confused and sinful world so that Jesus sacrifice for us will not be wasted.
But dear abba father, I need to tell you that my search for you does not end with the church, with those weekly prayer meetings, with those sunday services. I believe the although sinful but beautiful world that you have created is the journey which I must embark on in order to bring myself closer to you.
So dear heavenly father, do show me a way, and show me what my destiny is.
I believe people who can think, who are able to think, who bothers to think, have ask this question themselves many times throughout their life.
Some people have found their answer, some people continue to search for the answer, some people have found, abandon, n continue searching for another answer.
My search for the way, the truth n the life, has always been a long, n emotional journey. I love to think, I love to read, n I don't want to stop myself from thinking and searching. But the truth is always more difficult to be found. Our heart, our emotions are the barriers separating us from the truth, separating us from god.
Life is not an easy journey. There are too many hidden hurts and sins in a persons' heart, in a person's life. A person can only help himself by being philosophical, by burying the hurts and sins, by being happy, by putting up a brave front. But nobody is really able to be truthful to himself, to face himself, to accept himself as who he is. The roots of hurts and sins are actually deeply rooted in many people's hearts and the biggest problem is nobody has really understand this truth and as time goes by, these hurts and sins modify their character, their thinking, and the way they live life.
Although there are still many things in the world that I do not understand, there are still many doings of god that I do not understand, there are times when my faith are not so strong, and I become weak, I can now open my heart to god, to face him, and to be very truthful to him. This is because I now understand that we are all precious children of god.
After going for this weekend encounter camp, I find that my heart has become very light, and the "cupboard" in my heart has been removed. ( I used to treat my heart as a cupboard, and to "compartmentalised" all my feelings so that I won't feel sad or hurt, and just feel indifferent about people and events.) All those past hurts and "world" sins that I have committed before I become a christian are now nailed to the cross, as Jesus has sacrificed for us on the cross. I just prayed that god will guard my heart in this confused and sinful world so that Jesus sacrifice for us will not be wasted.
But dear abba father, I need to tell you that my search for you does not end with the church, with those weekly prayer meetings, with those sunday services. I believe the although sinful but beautiful world that you have created is the journey which I must embark on in order to bring myself closer to you.
So dear heavenly father, do show me a way, and show me what my destiny is.
posted by rebekah @ 12:57 AM
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