Detachment

It is the 2nd week of work, but somehow, I have not find myself settling in yet.
I guess its because I do not want to settle in, I just want to feel detach from the whole place, the whole environment.
The uncertainty of leaving or staying hangs in the air, but somehow everyone knows that my heart is not here anymore.
Nobody can make me stay, nobody can make me chase the things that majority of the crowd are chasing, nobody can get to the bottom of my heart.

What is the purpose of getting a recognition through evaluation? I do not care, I do not bother, I do not feel anything, because you are not my employer. M is my true employer.
Can you tell me what is the purpose of competing with those who are your brothers & sisters afterall, since we are all under the employment of M.
I hate it, I hate all talk, & little action & all lies. All are BS afterall.

But my heart goes out to all the peers who have been working alongside me, laughing & crying with each other, encouraging & helping each other through my 4 years here. All of you are my biggest blessing when I transferred over here 4 years ago.
So although my heart is detached from this place, it will always be with all of you, no matter which end of the world I goes to.