The three "Cs" in my life

As I thought about what happened today, I suddenly realized that these 3 organizations that I used to be in and are in now all starts with the alphabet "C". So I'll like to give 3 of them an initial.

Firstly, I'll like to talk about "C1", the only organization that I feel committed and a sense of belonging. I really thank god for bringing me here as it is the first time I have finally found leaders whom I respect, look up to, and whom I can really role-model after. I never thought that a my personal goals, mission & purpose in life can actually align with what all "C1" is teaching. I really pray that I can grow, mature & contribute more to "C1" & the whole world who needs us.

Secondly, I'll like to talk about "C2", the organization that I had left to join "C1". Its the organization that makes me realize that the problem doesn't lies with me, but the problem is that I don't fit & belong here. So I really thank god that I am able to leave with gratitude in my heart despite all the conflicts & unhappy events that happened in the past.

Last but not least, I'll also like to talk about "C3", the organization that my livelihood depends on. After 3 years here, I also realized that I don't fit & belong here. I don't want to change myself like what others are doing because its not worth it. You can "die" for this organization, but who in this organization will help you if you sacrifice so much and your own personal life is in a mess and your own personal problems pile up mountain high. I can feel that god is telling me to go elsewhere and do something great. I don't want to do any other things just to prove myself because I believe god have a greater plan for me. So I really pray, father, that you will show me the way, just like the rainbow you have shown me today......